Note to self: When writing, hit save before walking away. Some may call this a frustration, I call this an opportunity to perfect my stories by writing them again.
Day eleven (which was yesterday since my post didn't post). I have been concentrating these first few weeks on what things are most important to me. I have a full life, especially for a woman who doesn't work for money...well, except my husband's money. Occasionally, I feel a need to re-evaluate what I am involved in, deciding between what needs to stay in my life and what needs to be removed.
Last August, Philip and I went on vacation with our family. On the way home, we started to evaluate what we were doing with our family, the school, and our church. We want to be sure in every season, we have our priorities right and are not over-committed. I could only think of one thing that was causing me stress and when I got home, I let it go. Since doing that, I have felt balanced. It is hard to believe that something so small could throw off how I felt about everything I was doing. Today, I can honestly say everything I am involved in with the school, church, ministry, and family...I know is what God has called me to do. My life is full and full of peace.
I still felt a need to push further in this area, because I wasn't finding the time to do what I love most. I have a confession to make and a struggle to reveal. My confession: I desire with my whole heart to write. More than speaking. More than leading a small group. More than cleaning my house, doing laundry, and cooking dinner. I know...shocked! Who doesn't love keeping up with their home?? I want to write. My struggle: I don't do it.
Am I the only one out there who really, really wants to do something and has the time and the resources to do it...but doesn't? Someone said to me once, "I know you are too busy." Initially, I agreed, but to agree would be using an excuse that isn't true. I am not too busy to write, I am too distracted. The phone beeps. The dishes need done. I play my guitar. I talk to my mom. The phone rings. The washer stops. On and on and on... I go from thing to thing to thing and I don't write. AT. ALL. It is depressing. I get ready for bed and the negative self talk starts about how I wasted my day and my time.
So on my 11th day...I prayed and am continuing to pray that God would help me make room for the things that are important to my heart and that my priorities would be God's priorities for my day. I also prayed that I would be better at keeping the first things first. I want this year to be a year of challenge and growth.
Living Completely Undon
I am a girl passionately in love with Jesus, my husband, and my children. I am forever learning how to live a life completely undone for my God. This blog is about my journey and a few funny stories in between.