I have spent today thinking of "blind spots" and how the enemy tries to deceive me from my own sin and shortcomings. There are things I can't see and unless Jesus reveals them to me, these are things I can't change. I often tell Philip he has to love me enough to tell me when I am doing something I shouldn't. He hates when I ask him this, but it is so necessary for the person closest to me to gently (emphasis on the gently) point out when I miss the mark. This post could easily transition to relationships, but I will do that one another day. I need to have Godly people around me who love me enough to tell me stuff that hurts, the kind of truth that no one wants to hear, but we all need to know.
My husband prayed this prayer a few years back, "Lord, if there is anything in my life stopping me from living the way you want me to live, please reveal it." Unfortunately for us, shortly after that prayer, all war broke out. Later, Philip confessed that he asked God to take anything away that was taking his focus off him. I have since told him the next time he gives Jesus permission to reveal something in his life, he needs to tell me so I am prepared for the shake down.
As a couple, we don't want anything to stop us from being who God desires. The biggest obstacles in living a Godly life are the areas I can't identify myself...my blind spots. Jeremiah 17 says that my heart is deceitful. If I can't always see my heart clearly, I need Jesus to point out what needs to change. He often uses other people to accomplish this. I don't always enjoy this process, but I am committed to it.
We are in a process that will be perfected when we come face to face with Jesus. (Philippians 1:6) I have to remain humble. I have to remain yielded to the Holy Spirit and his prompting for growth. Do I hate being told I am wrong? YES, I hate it and sometimes fight it with every ounce of my soul. After I struggle with my pride, I am able to go to the Lord and ask Him to change me. There are just things I can't change without him. I am by nature a feisty Northern girl who needs a little extra Southern Bell charm.
This is my prayer. Wherever I fall short, however I am not representing the light of Jesus well, may my loving and gracious Savior reveal it to me so I can change. Please remove the blind spots and make me whole. May I forever trust Jesus enough to embrace the process of becoming more like Him. May God teach me how to love people well and to see people and situations through his eyes of compassion and love.
Living Completely Undone
I am a girl passionately in love with Jesus, my husband, and my children. I am forever learning how to live a life completely undone for my God. This blog is about my journey and a few funny stories in between.