There are times in my life I have learned very powerful lessons about perspective. Sometimes freedom, healing, advancement, and ministry happens just on the other side of seeing something differently.
My children cannot find the milk or anything else in the refrigerator. Ever. “Mom, I can’t find it!” they yell. I instruct them to move things around, but they still can’t see it. I just don’t get it. It is the biggest thing in our fridge. It is white. It is in the same spot EVERY DAY and when I help move things around, there it is. They smile and say, “Sorry.” I roll my eyes. Yes, as a mom, I am allowed to roll my eyes because it keeps me sane.
Last week, our front-loader washing machine started making a loud and painful noise. We looked online and the YouTube experts declared it to be a problem with the bearings. Their solution…purchase another machine. Well, that just wasn’t working with our budget and my rock star of a man decided to try his hand at the repair. We figured the worst thing that could happen is that we would be out the $50 we invested into parts.
The parts came and the repair day arrived. I felt a little guilty because I made sure all of our clothes were washed just in case we had to wait for our new machine to be delivered. Yes, I lacked faith.
Initially, we declared it a joint adventure. As usual, I saw all the parts spread out on the floor and realized that I just needed to go help the kids find the milk. Occasionally, I jumped in the laundry room with a “You can do anything!” cheer. Yes, I bailed.
Philip did an amazing job. Over 2 days, he took the entire machine apart, washed every piece, and replaced the bearings. I had 1 job…to wash the inside of the tub. The garage was too cold, so I decided to improve the cleaning plan and wash the tub upstairs in the bathroom. I left it there to dry overnight. The next day, I brought it down for Philip.
When Philip started putting the tub back into the machine, I sighed. There was a piece missing. Philip didn’t know what I was talking about because I was the one that washed the tub, but I was certain there was a piece near the seal that was no longer there.
For over an hour, we looked through the house for the missing piece. Philip looked online so he could see what the piece looked like. The first clue something was amiss should have been that there was no piece like I described listed with our machine. *Make note for next repair.
We blamed our kids. This is always the best way to handle all adult losses…blame the little people. They promised they didn’t touch anything, but we didn’t believe them. The interrogation continued. We tore up the bathroom and the laundry before decided the piece was forever gone.
We needed to put the machine back together so we could walk in the laundry room. My handy-man husband decided he would just order the missing piece the next day.
When Philip lifted up the tub back into the machine, I sighed again. It was one of those moments I didn’t really want to own. “Um, honey? The piece is there. In fact, I think the piece was always there.” When Philip lifted the tub into the machine, it gave me a different perspective and I could see that all the pieces were present and accounted for.
This was one of those defining moments for our marriage. Thankfully, my husband is a man of extreme control so he chuckled, put down his screwdriver, and served himself a large bowl of ice cream. I don’t think he even rolled his eyes. Right then and there I decided I would help him find the milk for the rest of his life.
Introducing our new and improved, quiet front-loading washing machine. Fixed by the most patient guy who has ever lived.
Isn’t it funny how this story is similar to how I approach my relationship with God? I read the same verse over and over, but it doesn’t speak to my heart or my situation. Then one day, I read the verse with a different perspective and it speaks to me…it is life changing.
There are things in our lives that hold us back from having eyes that see and ears that hear. Our past, sin, busyness, a critical heart, negative words are just some of the things that can hinder our perspective.
Steven Furtick says, “What I see is up to me.” What do I hold on to that hinders my perception? I guess this is where I list all my faults that keep me in the dark. Pride. Arrogance. Sin. Self-centeredness. Self-pity. Anger. Busyness. Negative words.
I need to come to God with an open heart and a willingness to look at something in a different way. How easy it can be to get in a rut of the same thing over and over, missing every bit of hope God has for me?
Matthew 13 says, “Blessed are your eyes because they see, and your ears because they hear.”
I don’t want to miss God. When he speaks, I want to hear. When he shows me something, I want to see it. God is the same yesterday, today, and forever. His word doesn’t change…I do.
I get lazy and I don’t spend time with him.
I am overcome with self-pity because I have to deal with my children.
I am tired because I went to bed late watching a movie.
I waste my time…His time…hanging out on social media.
This list could go on and on...and this is just my list for today. Tomorrow, there will be a new list.
How often does God roll his eyes at me when I yell, “I can’t find it! I can’t see the hope. I can’t see the freedom. I can’t see the healing!" And the whole time God is saying to me, “Just move things around a bit and you will find it.
Every day I have a choice to make as to how I approach God. Am I ready to give him everything? To surrender my family, my dreams, and my hopes? To worship him faithfully, with all of me.
I have days…days where I just want to go back to bed, where I don’t want to speak to people or write or read or worship. Days I don’t want to obey his word. My perspective is off because I am so busy looking at where I am dissatisfied. I forget how blessed I am.
Then…He reminds me that what I see, is up to me. To move things around, to see things in a different light. To find it. To find Him.
To let Him set me free.
Then I have that moment where truth is revealed and my hope is restored. Sometimes freedom, healing, advancement, and ministry happens just on the other side of seeing something differently.
I am a girl passionately in love with Jesus, my husband, and my children. I am forever learning how to live a life completely undone for my God. This blog is about my journey and a few funny stories in between.