My friend's little boy was very sick. He was hospitalized for days because his appendix had ruptured and an infection had set in. During his hospitalization, it was required for him to have a picc line. She called me devastated because she had just watched her bundle of love go through something horrific. As she spoke with me, I felt my head spinning and my stomach getting queasy. She needed to talk and I needed to rise to the occasion, so I grabbed a pillow and lay on the floor. I breathed deeply as she cried and we prayed for healing and strength, not only for her son, but for her and her husband.
Years later, I am not even sure how it came out that I had to lay on the floor. She asked me why I didn't tell her that our conversation was making me nauseous. I told her I knew she needed me to be strong. I knew God would strengthen me to pray with her even though it was difficult. My difficulty was nothing compared to what her son was going through.
I know some reading may think that is ridiculous. Unfortunately, I have no control over my physical response to difficult medical situations. I can't control my light head, my tears, or my need to lay down. It is what it is, but I won't allow it to prevent me from being present for the people I love. Now, that doesn't mean I won't unfollow you on Facebook if you keep posting pics of a gaping wound. It means when I need to be there for someone, I will find a way...like other people find a way to be present for me.
So often, I have had to push past my own physical response to pain and sickness. As I have gotten older, things have happened...babies have gotten sick, children have died, my loved ones have gone through chemo, and my friends have needed me. They have needed my physical presence and my emotional support. They have needed me to to rise to the occasion so I can point them to Jesus, the strong tower.
I find myself in a season of people I dearly love going through difficult things. Very difficult things. It can be easy to shy away when our friends need us most because it is uncomfortable to watch our loved ones suffer. But we can't shy away. We have to be willing to push through how it makes us feel, both physically and emotionally.
"Just then a woman who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years came up behind him and touched the edge of his cloak. She said to herself, “If I only touch his cloak, I will be healed.”
Jesus turned and saw her. “Take heart, daughter,” he said, “your faith has healed you.” And the woman was healed at that moment." Matthew 9:20-21
When Jesus healed the woman, she knew she had to get close enough to touch the hem of his garment. Her faith in Jesus healed her. When our friends walk through difficult times, often they need our faith and hope to rally around them. They need the encouraging words of truth found in the word of God. Sometimes they need the Jesus in you.
My prayer for is that I would be a strength to the ones I love going through difficult things. I pray I would always be willing to push through the hard conversations, the hospital visits, and the chemo appointments. I need Jesus to give me eyes to see when the people I love need encouragement. Jesus, please heal my loved ones. Give them strength. May they forever reside in the strength only you can bring to a situation.
Living Completely Undone
I am a girl passionately in love with Jesus, my husband, and my children. I am forever learning how to live a life completely undone for my God. This blog is about my journey and a few funny stories in between.