When I was pregnant with Lincoln I had extreme vertigo. My world spun round and round and my stomach often went with it. There were times I could feel it coming on. If I twisted my head a certain way or I looked sideways too long, the spinning would start.
After I delivered Lincoln, my vertigo stopped...almost. Occasionally, there are certain quick movements I make that bring on the familiar feeling. I have learned to recognize what is happening and stop what I am doing. With rest, the sensation eventually leaves me. Vertigo has definitely made amusement parks fun!
This morning my alarm went off and I wasn’t prepared. Honestly, my week has been crazy full. The busier I am…the better I sleep. I was out. When the sounds of birds chirping hit my awareness (I have absolutely no idea why I have selected the “Happy Bird” sound to wake me up), I jumped out of bed in a way that brought the vertigo sensation on strong.
In that moment, I had to make a decision; get up and push through or lay back down and relax so the vertigo would leave. I chose to lay back down and rest until I felt better. It wasn’t in my plan for the day, but it worked and I was able to complete everything I had scheduled. One of those things was a very important lunch date with my daughter at school.
After this episode dissipated, I started thinking about how often when I was pregnant I pushed through. Instead of stopping when I felt dizzy I kept moving, hoping it would go away. It didn’t.
I started to think about other situations in my life where I have pushed through. For some reason, I have spent most of my life conquering tasks and moving on. The more challenging the obstacle, the harder I push. Eventually this cycle causes me to crash and burn and I am left with chaos.
These moments of chaos slow me down and cause me to re-evaluate my situation. Often, I am forced to decide on the best course of action to stop the tsunami from overtaking my life. Simply stated: I was not designed for this.
I have made a point to recognize the signs of being close to the edge. A fast beating heart, a quick temper, or an inability to focus on a task are all signs I am over-extended…either physically or emotionally.
Like many women, I have a full plate. Whether I am in a season of working or in a season of staying home taking care of my family, there is a tendency to push through when I know it is time to rest. I believe resting is a skill that does not come naturally to me.
No one says you or I have to push through. Who knows, maybe in the rest, God will speak to my heart and give me a strategy and a plan to push through my obstacle or to manage my chaos? Maybe even these plans will result in quicker action than if I had just kept moving? God really is good like that.
So whether you are a working woman or a college student…
A single mom or a stay-at-home mom…
A leader or a follower…
Remember God delights in you. His plan is for you to have times of rest that rejuvenate your soul and give you a sustaining strength to accomplish his plans and purposes.
Often we just have to rest long enough to recognize it.
Living Completely Undone
I am a girl passionately in love with Jesus, my husband, and my children. I am forever learning how to live a life completely undone for my God. This blog is about my journey and a few funny stories in between.