Today is Day 3. I am sitting here in the corner of my quiet home. 20 days ago I sat in this exact spot, sipped my delicious coffee, and basked in the quiet. The peaceful moments in my life allow me the time to ponder life’s blessings. In a moment I may tell “Alexa” to play some quiet Bethel Live or Elevation worship, but for now I can hear the cars driving on the highway a mile away. Believe it or not, this sound is soothing because for 20 days, I haven’t been able to hear it. Delightful.
I know some may read the above paragraph and assume that I don’t love being with my children, but that isn’t true. I love when they are home. I love being able to kiss and hug them or watch a movie sitting next to them. They are my tangible blessings from God, but after 20 days...my kids need some structure that is directed by someone else other than me. Has anyone else noticed that their growing humans tend to shut them out the longer they are home?? I asked Elliot last night if he was done with me telling him what to do. He actually said, “YES!” Where did my baby go??
I am thankful for my family today. I am pondering and praying about what changes God would like to make in me this year? I would love to tell you that I have arrived as a mom, but I know there are things I can improve. To be vulnerable, I think I am too quick with my kids. I make fast decisions when they ask me something and then when I think about it later, I realize I made the wrong call. I have no problem going back and changing my mind, but sometimes it would save us all some heartache if I just slowed down and absorbed what my kids were looking for.
I definitely need to take the time to have more quiet moments in my day. These quiet times get me ready to pour into my family and to help with homework. I certainly need as much of Jesus as I can get in order to help my kids with homework! I am looking at my house and how much needs to get done while my kids are at school, but instead of conquering these tasks, I am going to sit, read my Bible, and pray.
My hope for my children is that they would know Jesus personally. Until my kids have an actual encounter with Christ, I don't believe they truly understand what it means to have a relationship with Him. My prayer is that they would have an encounter and would develop a passion for the Kingdom in their younger years. I believe this kind of relationship will sustain them through the different seasons of their lives. They need Jesus more than ever. The enemy is after our young people. They are being told lies by our culture that is meant to cause them to question and doubt who they are...and who God is. They are being told that God is exclusive and unloving. They are being told that God is religion, a myth...but He is so much more.
My prayer for today is that they will develop a relationship with Jesus and their lives would be radically impacted by His saving grace.
I also hope they would continue to believe their mom is a Rock Star.
Living Completely Undone
I am a girl passionately in love with Jesus, my husband, and my children. I am forever learning how to live a life completely undone for my God. This blog is about my journey and a few funny stories in between.